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Monday, June 05, 2006

Moms without moms

This week contains two anniversaries for me. The first will be on Tuesday and will celebrate my 8th wedding anniversary. The other will be on Saturday and it will mark 4 years since my mother passed away. I really can't believe either one. It seems like yesterday that I met my husband and it seems like a bad dream that my mom isn't here. Six months after my mom died I found out I was pregnant. I remember that first day that I found out I was so happy. We had been trying for four years and it was just such a wonderful day. The next day was a different story. I was out of my mind scared about how I would go through a pregnancy without my mother. I worried so much while I was pregnant and questioned my every decision. I just wanted to be able to ask her all the crazy little questions you have while your pregnant. When Carson arrived though I just couldn't believe how much I loved him. I knew that my mom must have loved me like that. Isn't it amazing how much you love your kids? It really is true that you can't understand it until you have your own kids. I just wish my mom was here to see my kids. I wish she could hold them and love on them. I want to call her when they are sick and ask her what I'm supposed to do. I want my kids to hear her voice and smell her perfume. I don't even know where to start to describe what it's like to be a mom without a mom. I'm barely making it through posting this so I think that will be it for today. I've got some links for support groups that I'll post later.

Kristen

2 Comments:

  • At 7:46 PM, Blogger Dianna said…

    Awww Kristen, {{{BIGHUGS}}}.

     
  • At 1:03 PM, Blogger Amy said…

    Kristen,

    I know it's hard, but you are a great Mom and I'm sure your Mom is looking over there and see that.

     

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